It's been a number of years. Of course I realize this blog as with anything on the internet can be seen and read by my ex.

The abuse I suffered so long ago (going on 5 years) has completely changed who I am. I am stronger and I have to say, in the end, made me better equipped to help others.

Though I still wish I could undo what was done, I can relish that I am finally in a great relationship that is healthy and built on trust. We move into our house in a couple months. We get married in a year. My friends and family that have stayed through the difficult times made me realize that there are people out there that can really be depended upon in times when it is uncomfortably silent.

Future travels and career goals (I can't believe I'm so close to what I set out to do in 10 years) made me realize that life moves and if I catch the drift, it can be rather good.

I guess, in the long run, this post is an effective, I'm so glad I'm not with you, my life is soooo much better post. Also, if this is a future wife/girlfriend/whatever: careful and don't quit your job/move for him. It will be the worst mistake you make. Careful of his tastes and what he does and under no circumstances let him dictate who you talk to. He has a way of making you feel ashamed or angry at people that were close to you. There is a reason for this... and a reason why he doesn't have friends and doesn't have any for more than 10 years. That seems to be the cut-off.

Now that I have this out of my system, it's time to move on and finally remove my thoughts.